2025 Spring

lToday I finally feel I can breathe, eventough at the same time feel very harassed by the season. I will graduate in coming weeks, also still no luck on the job market so probably have to be unemployed for a bit, witch is scary AF! Neighbour came by yesterday asking me to cut down the branches from the trees that are on my land but damage the tractor... so that needs to be done asap, also finishing the roof painting i started in 2023 is in order. good news is that the pref paint has not peeled off, bad news.. one part is so high and sharp ur makes me unsure and unsafe and scared to go there. But i just have to overlook my fear! Dont have any doe to hire someone else..  

Also got some roofing material in spring so I can finish my woodshell and then we need to carry winter wood inside it also preferably sooner. Also need to go to Helsinki this months to wrap up my trainee period. I loved working with these accountants. It was hard but somehow, see I often feel as an outsider. Not belonging, the odd crayon in the box... they made me feel so normal! Rare feeling for me and I m so sad they cant keep me as are they. I do not know what the future holds for me. I know right now I have too many things on my plate and Art seems to be so extra. 
The family, the house, work, biking and art. Last two are too much but without them I am drowning. Also can not give up my home, when I have never really felt I have one anywhere else, but it needs a lot of money and time. I am having very mixed feelings overall right now and I hope it clears out by midsummer day. Never give up!  
ough but on the bright side, i hot myself a welding machine last week witch was a steal and I have been stalking one for a year now for new projects I have in mind. 

Now that the school is done for .. Btw I am gonna graduate with all A s except my last one on coming weeks because my boss said noone gets an A on their first year, like no one 😂 

hopefully I have time to post more often once the water clears up a bit❤️

But I wish you all a wonderful summer season, be safe, be alive and live, love, laugh as much as possible! I will give my best!